Happy

Other than some minor things that I simply cannot change....
I am happy. I am going to try to stay this way throughout my whole two week wait. I think I can do this ::crosses fingers::
Meanwhile I had a fantastic weekend and got a new knitting pattern that I cannot wait to try out. I have to finish the sweater first though...I haven't taken any pictures yet...but so far so good... I cannot wait until it is done.
But I have got a picture of the finished product so you can wait in anticipation. But DO NOT compare my sweater to this one..I am simply one step past beginner when it comes to knitting. Also, mine is for a 3-6 month old.

My Weekend

This, my friends, is where I will be spending my weekend. I am so excited. It is one of my favorite towns, and it is not here, which is always nice. Bible school is finally over, we are well into fwp week. We are going to try for everyday until Tuesday or Wednesday. We will see how that goes.
Have a Fantastic Friday and Wonderful Weekend!

Things are never easy

A rough night.
I know that I am not happy with Dan because I am not happy with myself. And for this I only have myself to blame. I wonder if I was pregnant, if we would still fight everyday. I don't know. *I KNOW A BABY DOESN'T MAKE THINGS BETTER* I am just fighting with myself, and fighting with him. I am sick of him bitching about everything. He is a baby. I ask him to help me with Bible school at church, 5 days 2 hours/day. And he bitches about it every night.What he could be doing with his time. I AM SICK OF IT. ahh!
Ok I just had to get it out.
That being said,
I love Dan so much. I couldn't imagine being without him, we have come to lean on each other through everything. He is a rock for me, and I need him in my life.

I always blame this kinda crap on my hormones....

Nothing New.

Not much to update on here. Which is a good thing I guess. I think I am coming out of the endless depression and feel all around better. I still get sad sometimes, but it is definitely less frequent. I started knitting a little girls sweater. I will have to take a picture of it so far...which isn't very much, but it is too cute. We have Vacation Bible School again tonight and Dan has been unwillingly participating. Hey, I take what I can get. We are done on Thursday, so I am ready to be done.Check out my book blog if you are looking for something to read. I am slowly building my list. I read a lot but have never written down my thoughts on a book.
Hope everyone has a great Tuesday!

Here we go ...

Today starts the week....or so for fucking with purpose. I am ready. I am not stressed out. When it happens, it happens. ::inhale, exhale:: But seriously, I have noticed since I have been spending considerably less time bumping, I have had less stress about this. No matter what, I will be ok.
I am so excited for this coming weekend. I am going to Galena with the BF and our boy, er man, toys. And Carissa, when I go to bed early...no questions, mmkay?? Don't you want a little one running around?? I just want to make you feel as comfortable as possible. :)
I am helping with bible school all week this week, so time will go fast I am sure. Nothing really exciting happened this weekend except DH made $94 in tips bartending..and that was off of a split. Looks like I have some shopping money ;)
On to just another day in Paradise...

Ahhhh!

So, I have been trying to take a mental break from Trying to conceive while still trying to conceive. So far so good. But i am not even in O week yet, so I should be fine. I am going to do what I can and take it in stride. Ok, easier said than done! I have had a busy couple of days this week and today should be busy as well.
I am so glad it is almost Friday, Just another week in paradise!

Happy Anniversary to Me!

Okay, I am going to be an attention whore...I have been married for 2 years today! Tonight we are traveling to the big city of Peoria to go out to eat. Nothing special just a nice meal, which we haven't done in awhile. We can celebrate that out farming is done (well, almost) and of course our wonderful two years of marriage.I don't really have anything else to say on that...but I love the lyrics of the song sung at our wedding so I will leave you with them...
"Stay With You"

We've been together for a while now
We're growing stronger everyday now
It feels so good and there's no doubt
I will stay with you as each morning brings sunrise
And the flowers bloom in springtime
On my love you can rely
And I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

Though relationships can get old
They have the tendency to grow cold
We have something like miracle
Yeah, and I'll stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you

And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, and they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we'll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for the lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with you
I will stay with you

Oh I'll stay with you through the ups and the downs
Oh I'll stay with you when no one else is around
And when the dark clouds arrive
I will stay by your side
I know we'll be alright
I will stay with you
Everything will be fine
And I will stay with you
Through the end of time
I will stay with you