Life with AF

Honestly, this hasn't been any different than my her visits before the pregnancy. I was scared to death by the horror reports I was reading on the 1st AF after d&c. However, mine has been nice, er, well, normal anyway.

It is amazing how every milestone I hit in "recovery" elevates my mood and since of hopefulness that much more.
*The d&c gave me closure on my pregnancy and let me move on from it.
*AF gave me closure on my loss and lets me look forward to being pg again.
* A BFP will give me hope for a success after the loss.

Warning TMI ahead....
Since AF came (and condoms can be discarded finally), this is the first time that sex sounds appealing to me. Sad, I know. Maybe it is because I know that we are going to TTC again and that is exciting. Maybe it is because we don't need the dreaded condoms. Maybe it is because I finally feel like I can move on with life. Maybe it is the hormones. I don't know what it is, but don't get me wrong, AMEN.

TMI Over...

I just wish it would stop raining outside. It is colder today too. We were spoiled with beautiful weather last week. Tonight Molly has dog training again. Dan is going with me to run errands in Peoria. We are finalizing our Farm LOC and Equipment Loan papers to be turned in today, so that is exciting.

Dan has been amazing lately. He is a lot kinder more often. He will not complain about my cooking, he cooks, he helps clean up, he puts his own clothes away. If I ask him to do things around the house he will eventually get to them...hey we got to start somewhere right?? I love it. I don't know what I would do without him. This experience has brought us much closer. I have been dating/married to him for 6.5 years now...and I am not sick of him yet.

I am so exciting to start baking a baby...it is getting the best of me, I'll admit.

Oh and also, My BFF and I were not invited to a mutual friends wedding. When I say mutual friend I mean someone who did EVERYTHING with us in highschool. There was 4 of us. They were all in my wedding almost 2 yrs ago. We were all in another wedding last fall. And now....we are not even invited...wtf...seriously. And it isn't a small wedding...around 300 people. She is having the reception at the hall (BFF and I work there) and we don't want to be working the day of her event...so we are taking a trip to Galena with DH and her fiance...I can't wait. It will be short and sweet but to worth it to not be there...and actually enjoying ourselves.

Have a great day!